dear 2017

dear 2017,

You were one of the craziest years of my life. So much had happened, both good and bad. I went through a lot. I’ve also grown so much.

So I just want to say thank you.

Thank you for teaching me to give it all I’ve got if I want to accomplish my dreams. Thank you for teaching me to believe in myself and in my work. Thank you for teaching me to slow down, take a deep breath, and take one step at a time. Thank you for bringing the most amazing people into my life. Thank you for giving me so many amazing opportunities. Thank you for showing me the importance of hard work.

Looking back at my journal, I can see that I really focused on myself this year. I wanted a chance to reinvent myself and feel like me again. However, I also lost myself towards the end of the year. I was in a strange and unfamiliar place that I am only starting to come out of now.

This year, I pierced my ear again, read more than ever before, went on a weeklong vacation with my family (over 20 of us), applied to colleges, got my first (and second) job, went camping, started my senior year of high school, got into 9 colleges, and became an adult (!!).

I am finally in a happy place in my life. I want to continue down this road, and make 2018 even more memorable than 2017.

dear 2018,

I promise to make you wonderful.

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a writing update.

As you may remember, I just wrote a post explaining my excitement for Camp NaNoWriMo. And I was beyond excited. But it’s time to be honest with myself.

I’ve been in a huge writing slump (writer’s block, i guess) and I haven’t picked up a pen in weeks, besides the occasional line or two. I thought that joining camp would give me a reason to write, and that I would feel even more motivated. Boy was I wrong. Forcing myself to write just generates horribly written lines that I end up deleting either way.

So we are now 1/2 way through the month, and I ended up re-writing the first 2 pages of my novel instead of writing more. I am just not into it right now. I really hope I can get out of this strange mood soon because it is not like me to not want to write. I feel strange and everything feels out of place. I haven’t even wanted to blog.

I am leaving for vacation at a beach house in North Carolina in exactly one week. I hope that time near the ocean will inspire me once again, and maybe I will get some writing done. If not, I am not stressing anymore. I want to focus on myself and listen to what my mind is telling me.

I will hopefully continue working on my novel in the near future because I do like what I have so far. If I have more writing updates, I will definitely post them.

Anyways, good luck to everyone who is on track to finish their goals for camp!

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Camp NaNoWriMo!

I never thought I would actually be saying this, but I’m writing a book! I decided (very last minute) to join Camp NaNoWriMo this year and try to actually start writing. I’ve always wanted to sit down and write a novel, but I never got around to it.

What is Camp NaNoWriMo? If you’ve heard of NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), then this is a less strict version of that. Basically, it is a site where you sign up and set a goal of number of words you want to write in July. My goal is only 10k words because I’ve never written an actual novel, and I want to start small. This way I won’t be too hard on myself if I can’t write too often. Plus I am going on vacation on the last week of July, so I don’t think I will be writing much then.

You also get to pick a cabin (or get assigned one) with a group of other campers! Your cabin mates are there to help keep you inspired and motivated. The concept is really adorable, and I am excited to begin!

My novel is still in its beginning stages. I started with one concept on July 1st, and I wrote about 400 words until I decided I wanted to change it completely. So yesterday I wrote an entirely new outline with a plot I like a lot better. I am now at about 500 words, and I plan on writing 1000 today.

I don’t have a synopsis written yet, but that is my next goal.

Here is a small snippet:
At night, she often looked up at the bright, night sky. The twinkle of the scattered stars put her in a trance. Her name was Summer Rhodes, but she never resembled the warmth and sunshine of that season. No, she was more of an Autumn. Her hair was like fire, and it flowed all the way down to her hips. Her eyes were a Caribbean green. She was beautiful. It was the middle of the night, and, as she often did, Summer climbed through the window of her small, 2 bedroom apartment to gaze out at the darkness. The wind was cold against her body, and her arms shivered at the touch of it. Fresh air was what she needed. It slowed her breathing and calmed her heart. Nothing could steady her overflowing thoughts better. 

Let me know what you think down below!
I will post updates every now and then, if I have something to talk about!

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