journal entries about writing

the thing about writing is that sometimes you feel as though you have nothing to write. you think your words are not worthy enough to be put on paper. but writing is for you. it does not need to meet anyone’s standards. all that you need is a pen and a thought. we all have plenty of those. the rest will follow naturally.

when i write, i can feel all the energy inside me flowing. i feel powerful, indestructible.  words are a vital part of my existence. i would be incredibly lost without them. there’s something inside me that draws me to this art form constantly. this need i have for writing is inescapable.

put the pen to the edge of the paper, my dear, and let the words flow out of you. they don’t need to be perfect, but they still deserve to be said.

 

xo, jessica

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a writing update.

As you may remember, I just wrote a post explaining my excitement for Camp NaNoWriMo. And I was beyond excited. But it’s time to be honest with myself.

I’ve been in a huge writing slump (writer’s block, i guess) and I haven’t picked up a pen in weeks, besides the occasional line or two. I thought that joining camp would give me a reason to write, and that I would feel even more motivated. Boy was I wrong. Forcing myself to write just generates horribly written lines that I end up deleting either way.

So we are now 1/2 way through the month, and I ended up re-writing the first 2 pages of my novel instead of writing more. I am just not into it right now. I really hope I can get out of this strange mood soon because it is not like me to not want to write. I feel strange and everything feels out of place. I haven’t even wanted to blog.

I am leaving for vacation at a beach house in North Carolina in exactly one week. I hope that time near the ocean will inspire me once again, and maybe I will get some writing done. If not, I am not stressing anymore. I want to focus on myself and listen to what my mind is telling me.

I will hopefully continue working on my novel in the near future because I do like what I have so far. If I have more writing updates, I will definitely post them.

Anyways, good luck to everyone who is on track to finish their goals for camp!

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Camp NaNoWriMo!

I never thought I would actually be saying this, but I’m writing a book! I decided (very last minute) to join Camp NaNoWriMo this year and try to actually start writing. I’ve always wanted to sit down and write a novel, but I never got around to it.

What is Camp NaNoWriMo? If you’ve heard of NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), then this is a less strict version of that. Basically, it is a site where you sign up and set a goal of number of words you want to write in July. My goal is only 10k words because I’ve never written an actual novel, and I want to start small. This way I won’t be too hard on myself if I can’t write too often. Plus I am going on vacation on the last week of July, so I don’t think I will be writing much then.

You also get to pick a cabin (or get assigned one) with a group of other campers! Your cabin mates are there to help keep you inspired and motivated. The concept is really adorable, and I am excited to begin!

My novel is still in its beginning stages. I started with one concept on July 1st, and I wrote about 400 words until I decided I wanted to change it completely. So yesterday I wrote an entirely new outline with a plot I like a lot better. I am now at about 500 words, and I plan on writing 1000 today.

I don’t have a synopsis written yet, but that is my next goal.

Here is a small snippet:
At night, she often looked up at the bright, night sky. The twinkle of the scattered stars put her in a trance. Her name was Summer Rhodes, but she never resembled the warmth and sunshine of that season. No, she was more of an Autumn. Her hair was like fire, and it flowed all the way down to her hips. Her eyes were a Caribbean green. She was beautiful. It was the middle of the night, and, as she often did, Summer climbed through the window of her small, 2 bedroom apartment to gaze out at the darkness. The wind was cold against her body, and her arms shivered at the touch of it. Fresh air was what she needed. It slowed her breathing and calmed her heart. Nothing could steady her overflowing thoughts better. 

Let me know what you think down below!
I will post updates every now and then, if I have something to talk about!

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things i still think about

When the sky turns dark, and I am all alone, I still reminisce the days I spent with you. These are the things I still think about.

The way your hands swept over every crater and bump on my face.
How my eyes lit up just by hearing your name.
How happy we were that we would be forever.
Your hand would grip mine with such confidence, and I never wanted you to let go.
You would kiss me goodnight, and tell me how beautiful I am.
The warmth of your breath on my neck was enough to give me goosebumps.
And how minutes apart were too difficult to bear.
How we talked about our plans and thought we had a future.
And my stomach did flips every time you looked at me.
Your touch energized me, all the way to my soul.
All the late conversations we had at night under the stars.
I will always remember the way you made me feel.
I was full of joy and laughter.

But most of all, I think about how forever quickly turned to never.
And goodnight kisses just turned to goodbye.
Oh, how we changed and grew up.
Never finding time for each other anymore.
The way I felt cold without you by my side,
and how I felt like a piece of me was missing without your arm in mine.
Minutes turned to days,
and neither of us thought of stopping by.
The messages stopped coming, and I stopped checking my phone.
My eyes were dull, and my heart felt so, so empty.
How naive and foolish we were to think that we had forever.
But there was nothing we could have done differently.
Because the universe had a plan, and we were not meant to be.

So when the sun comes up, I brush away the tears, and I forget about the nights I spent with you.

But forgetting is hard to do.

 

*This is all a work of fiction, I promise it has nothing to do with my life. It is just a little poem I wrote after reading a book, haha,*

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Featured Art

There are so many talented people in the world. Thanks to social media, I get to discover these artists, and now I want to share them with you. Here are some amazing pieces of art from some wonderful people. Be sure to check them out. Also, if you want to be featured next, email me (kissesfromjess@gmail.com) with your artwork-anything from watercolor paintings, digital art, poetry, writing, etc.

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By Jemima Reeve– check out the rest of this poem on Jemima’s blog. 

 

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By Matenia Altikatis 

 

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(Also) By Julia Jelinek