how do i know that im doing the right thing?

In just a few short weeks, I will be starting my first semester of college. I have never been more excited to explore and live life on my own in a new place. But, I still have my doubts sometimes.

I have doubts about my major and my future career choice. How do I know that the major I chose is the right one for me? Am I following the right path? Will I be happy with a career in this field?

Deciding your future can be so so terrifying. I know it was for me. I am a person with many different interests. I want to explore every single major that my school offers, so how was I supposed to narrow it down to just one? I love to write and read, so maybe English? But I am also so interested in the human mind. Maybe I’ll go with psychology. Buuuutt, I also think I would enjoy political science. I have never just been passionate about one thing- I have always been fascinated by the entire world. It’s hard to have to eliminate many of my interests just so that I can focus on one, maybe two if I double major.

Luckily, the one thing that I haven’t had any doubts about is my school- I am so excited to be attending such a beautiful campus surrounded by some really amazing people. I fell in love with the campus the first time I set foot there, and I knew it was the place for me. Plus, it is so close to the beach, which is my favorite place in the world. It’s such a relief knowing that I look forward to going to school next year, which means that I have made at least one right decision when it comes to deciding my future.

I realized I shouldn’t doubt myself so much. I know who I am and I know what I like. As long as I’m always working hard towards my goals, I know I will be okay. Besides, if I really don’t enjoy the classes I’m taking, I can always switch my major.

The future is a scary place. Venturing into the unknown always is. But follow your heart and it will lead you on the right path.

Good luck with your future.

Xo, Jess

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a writing update !

I have finally started a new writing project again!! I know that I have posted about my writing numerous times on this blog, but I never really stay up to date on updating you guys.

BUT, a couple weeks ago, I came up with a really great story idea for a contemporary YA romance, and it is the only thing consuming my thoughts at the moment. Camp NaNo started at the beginning of July, and I decided (very last minute) that I wanted to participate. I tried participating last year, but I completely failed and gave up. The story I was writing wasn’t something that I was passionate about, so it was hard to get myself to write.

However, this time around, I completely outlined a novel that I am so excited about. I haven’t been this motivated to write in a really long time, so I know that this is what I need to dedicate my time to.

Currently, I am a little over 3,000 words into this novel. I have just begun introducing my characters, and there haven’t been any major plot points yet. My goal for the Camp was to hit 10,000 words, but I don’t know if that will actually happen. I am trying not to force myself to write too much because I don’t want to burn out and get discouraged.

There is about a week left of NaNo so I am hoping to write about 1000-1500 words a day to reach my goal, but that is definitely not a sure thing.

I am really excited to get deeper into it, and my plan is to update you guys on how it is going every week. I will also give more details on the plot itself once I have established more of it because my ideas are constantly changing, so I don’t want to give a synopsis just yet!

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Are you participating in Camp NaNo this month? How far along into your writing project are you?

Xo, Jess

journal with me #5

It has been a very long time since I’ve done a journal with me post! I haven’t been in the mood to journal at all in the past few months, and I honestly can’t pinpoint why. I want to say it is a lack of motivation rather than inspiration, but I can’t really say what it is. I actually do feel both motivated and inspired. But my energy has been more focused towards my blog, writing/reading, and health/fitness. Journaling just hasn’t been a top priority like it used to be, and I just don’t find it as fun.

However, I missed a day of school this week, and I felt like getting back into it, even if it just with one page. I miss the feeling of satisfaction after completing a page, so I knew I wanted to at least try to work on it.

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I began by adding some cardstock paper with some different designs on the blank page and just filled in a quote I liked. Then, I found a magazine clipping that I really liked and trimmed the edges around to fit onto the page and I ended up really liking the look.

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Then, I added some washi tape and another magazine clipping, as well as some lines around the girl. As you can see in the next picture though, I ended up not liking what I did, so I used acrylic paint to black it out instead.

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This definitely suited my style a lot more, and I am so pleased with the result! As for the finishing touches, I just added some little stickers, and I topped it off with another quote! Sometimes I fill empty space with some of my writing, but I was lacking the inspiration at the time.

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I know it has been a while since I’ve done one of these, but would you guys want me to post some more soon? Please let me know, because I only want to do them if you’d be interested :)

Xo, Jess

first q&a !

A few weeks ago I asked you all to ask me some questions for a Q&A, and now I’m here to answer them!

What book(s) made a huge impact on you as a kid and now?

When I was a kid, one of my favorite books was The Hunger Games. I was obsessed with it and it was one of the first books that I actually couldn’t wait to get my hands on. I was in 6th or 7th grade when I read it, but I think it would be so interesting to re-read it and see if my opinion has changed at all.

Now, there are way too many books that have had an impact on me. To name a few- To Kill A Mockingbird, The Hate U Give, The Princess Saves Herself in This One.

Has a book ever derailed you and completely changed the course of your life?

No, a book has never completely changed my life. There are definitely books that have changed my mindset or made me see things from a new perspective, but not enough to change my life around.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I am planning on going to college to be a public relations major, so I would like to be something under that field. Possible a publicist or a public relations manager. I also hope to be an author, which would be my ultimate goal in life.

Do you collect anything? If so, what?

I don’t collect anything now, unless books count. When I was younger, I used to collect many random things- rocks, nail polish, etc.

What is your favorite poem and favorite form and why!

I have so many favorite poems. There are honestly too many to choose. One of them is haiku #2 from Madisen Kuhn’s book “Eighteen Years”. I also really love poems by Amanda Lovelace.

I don’t have a favorite poetry form though. I like any style, as long as it is well written. What I look for in poetry is just emotion and an ability to relate to the subject.

If you’d like to answer any of these questions in the comments, feel free to do so! I’d love o know your answers.

Also, I hope you all had a very merry Christmas (if you celebrate) and an amazing holiday season!

See you soon.

xo, jessica

journal entries about writing

the thing about writing is that sometimes you feel as though you have nothing to write. you think your words are not worthy enough to be put on paper. but writing is for you. it does not need to meet anyone’s standards. all that you need is a pen and a thought. we all have plenty of those. the rest will follow naturally.

when i write, i can feel all the energy inside me flowing. i feel powerful, indestructible.  words are a vital part of my existence. i would be incredibly lost without them. there’s something inside me that draws me to this art form constantly. this need i have for writing is inescapable.

put the pen to the edge of the paper, my dear, and let the words flow out of you. they don’t need to be perfect, but they still deserve to be said.

 

xo, jessica

things i still think about

When the sky turns dark, and I am all alone, I still reminisce the days I spent with you. These are the things I still think about.

The way your hands swept over every crater and bump on my face.
How my eyes lit up just by hearing your name.
How happy we were that we would be forever.
Your hand would grip mine with such confidence, and I never wanted you to let go.
You would kiss me goodnight, and tell me how beautiful I am.
The warmth of your breath on my neck was enough to give me goosebumps.
And how minutes apart were too difficult to bear.
How we talked about our plans and thought we had a future.
And my stomach did flips every time you looked at me.
Your touch energized me, all the way to my soul.
All the late conversations we had at night under the stars.
I will always remember the way you made me feel.
I was full of joy and laughter.

But most of all, I think about how forever quickly turned to never.
And goodnight kisses just turned to goodbye.
Oh, how we changed and grew up.
Never finding time for each other anymore.
The way I felt cold without you by my side,
and how I felt like a piece of me was missing without your arm in mine.
Minutes turned to days,
and neither of us thought of stopping by.
The messages stopped coming, and I stopped checking my phone.
My eyes were dull, and my heart felt so, so empty.
How naive and foolish we were to think that we had forever.
But there was nothing we could have done differently.
Because the universe had a plan, and we were not meant to be.

So when the sun comes up, I brush away the tears, and I forget about the nights I spent with you.

But forgetting is hard to do.

 

*This is all a work of fiction, I promise it has nothing to do with my life. It is just a little poem I wrote after reading a book, haha,*

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Featured Art

There are so many talented people in the world. Thanks to social media, I get to discover these artists, and now I want to share them with you. Here are some amazing pieces of art from some wonderful people. Be sure to check them out. Also, if you want to be featured next, email me (kissesfromjess@gmail.com) with your artwork-anything from watercolor paintings, digital art, poetry, writing, etc.

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By Jemima Reeve– check out the rest of this poem on Jemima’s blog. 

 

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By Matenia Altikatis 

 

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(Also) By Julia Jelinek